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life of an indigo

again, I read an article about indigo… and always end-up with: okay, I will live with this situation.

the article is written at 2010 and very interesting, and I found the point from this is “Self understanding can be enough to save an indigo’s life”.

here are recap of indigo’s traits, at least 15 traits e.g:

  1. feeling like an alien
  2. anger
  3. high self esteem
  4. resistence of authority, structure, and hierarchy
  5. seeing through lies
  6. breaking down structure
  7. radical authenticity
  8. love
  9. depression is common
  10. a sense of mission
  11. power, creativity, and energy
  12. intuition
  13. loners
  14. sensitivity
  15. strong connection with plan and animals; etc

the source is: http://www.sophiagubb.com/how-to-tell-if-you-are-indigo/

living this world is such a challenge and seeing this world like this made me confuse most of the time; till everyone said: you are over thinking!

ya, I am overthink most of the thing, especially those catch my eyes. this way of life somehow “not really good” cause “not common” for most of people; so, no wonder they call me weirdo sometimes 🙂

but again, every body has their own life and purpose of living this world; the point is let’s enjoy this life with our own ways.




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Teman tuk melangkah :)

Selangkah.. dua langkah… kakiku melangkah di selasar kantor tercinta. Ternyata sudah hampir 9 tahun aku melangkah disitu. Wow.. time gone by so fast! so much memories and achievement. Ya, so much!

Terbersit dalam benak, keren ya diriku ini karena bisa menjalani setiap langkah selama hampir 9 tahun. Jika dipikir-pikir, kesuksesan tersebut dikarenakan banyaknya kisah suka dan duka. Mungkin jika hanya kisah suka atau hanya kisah duka maka aku pasti sudah gagal dengan cepat… hanya keseimbangan yang membuatku survive.

Dalam menjalani setiap langkah, banyak teman yang menyertai: baik yang berwujud maupun tidak; baik yang hidup maupun tidak; baik berupa manusia maupun tidak. Diriku ditemani 2 benda yang membuatku selalu bersemangat, yaitu cincin kayu dan benang panca datu yang khas. Kenapa khas? karena tidak ada yang jual dipasar… keduanya khusus dibuat untuk diriku. Dengan demikian, it’s very personal and tak terhingga harganya. Thank you!

Keduanya sangat sederhana, namun selalu indah dan nyaman ketika kukenakan… banyak orang menggunakan beragam perhiasan yang berkilauan; namun bagiku, most of my time dalam semua events: kedua benda itulah yang selalu menemaniku karena keduanya tak tergantikan; jikalaupun aku menggunakan perhiasan lain maka mereka adalah pelengkap and I also really appreciate them 🙂

Mengingat setiap langkah dan setiap entitas yang menyertai adalah sebuah kewajiban yang merupakan bagian dari rasa syukur dan cara menumbuhkan kesadaran bahwa aku tidak bisa hidup sendiri. Memang aku lahir dan mati sendiri… namun mereka semua adalah entitas yang menolongku selama menjalankan tugas kehidupan dan melangkah hingga nanti masanya tiba aku siap mati sendiri.

Terima kasih for the best gifts ever…

My gratitude for you Wie…. I really love it and it’ll always be part of my life 🙂


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Punggung lusuh

10 tahun silam, tepatnya 10 tahun kurang 24 hari… Ku lihat punggung lusuh itu. Entah kenapa, aku tahu ku ingin menyentuh punggung lusuh itu, namun ku hanya bisa menatapnya penuh harap. Six sense… Seven sense… Semua dikerahkan agar punggung itu berbalik shg bisa ku lihat si empunya. Ya, dia berbalik.

Ku tahu dia tak kenal diriku, namun ku tahu aku mencarinya sepanjang hidupku.

Punggung lusuh itu, bercahaya, membuka gerbang duniaku; dunia yg kutemui hanya di alam mimpi. Ya, aku mimpi dan jd kenyataan.

Lama ku merenung, siapa dia… Sang pemilik punggung lusuh. Hingga akhirnya ku sapa dia, dan ku katakan “aku menantimu”.


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For you…

When I interested on something, like a book, usually I just open it and read whatever page it is with full attention. Today in periplus I spent my saturday looking for something… something new about life. Then I saw my favorite book, Memories. I flipped and opened… and read. The page entitled For You.

I stunned cause it really represent my feeling…. here the capture:

I wanna read it loud in front of you… only For You wie… ♡♡♡


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older n older

Time goes by and all things just gone. But still there’s bunch of memories worth to remember.

Just 30 years old I am.

If talk about achievement, probably half of my “kid’s dream” came true; then now preparing for the execution of next chapters.

When get older, my mind always flying to the memories of grandmother, who passed away at 100 (+) years old.
I knew her since she had become a tough single parent, then she babysat the grandchild; then she became older n older, going weak, couldn’t talk much, only ate traditional meal (honey + egg) + water, till at the end only a sip of water. Then she just smile n gone without any word….

Life is wonderful, I always saying. But ‘Yin n Yang’ always there…. Happiness n un-happiness 🙂
Yes, there’s no standard of happiness n un-happiness, it just depends on my perspective.

Based on my review, there some things that make people “pity on me” (I knew cause they said it). But after deep review, it’s just part of my life and actually not really bad (but challenge I thought). Again, it depends on the perspective.

Realistically, there some event made my tears rolling by (sometimes I called it un-happiness). But it’s ok, cause tears always be a good way to refresh my soul. I told myself: No time for give up, cause the sun still shining n the bird still singing 🙂

And after 30 years, I only feel grateful being a human n live in this fancy earth.

P.s: this year so unique cause surrounded by celebrations (Siwaratri, Saraswati, Laksmi, n Ganesha puja) – what a blessed n prosperous 30 ^^


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Once I’ve been in the desperate moment n once someone said ‘I know what to do, u no need to worry lah…’; suddenly I felt ‘OK’ 🙂

Life is wonderful, that’s my motto. But if it ‘too much’ and so many ‘too…. ‘, then I think life is not really wonderful anymore.

Pile of jobs is always OK, and the point is there always a way to make it done. But, when it become too much piles n nobody can help me; sometimes desperate feeling stop by. And I thought it happen to any kind of human.

In the middle desperate situation, thing I only need is a ‘help’ from capable n responsible person. That’s why when I heard someone said “I’m gonna help u. I know what to do and u no need to worry about it”; its just like fresh water in desert ^^

The last thing I wanna keep always up is spirit of moving, growing, n professionalism.

That’s all for today… Happy weekend for all n ciao…… 🙂


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Happy Wednesday….. happy for today 🙂  — cause today is 11-1-2012 ^^

When I was taking a breath n  seeing that I am 29 already, so many things had done… n still I make a wish for the running year n for the long run. And… one thing that made me feeling OK is the number.

Like this:

29 –> 2 + 9 = 11

11 + 1 = 12

29 – (11 – (1+1)) = 20

so, when 29….. it becomes 11-1-2012

AND, this post is number 111 🙂

Then, keep SMILE for me, cause I wanna See Miracle In Life Everyday 🙂


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